Day 362 • The 24th of June, 2023

🌄 Day 362/365 My mind is split in a thousand directions right now. What I’ve known of myself as an artist has flipped drastically in the last month. I’d been so steady, so sure, for so long, and now I’m awakening to possibilities long forgotten. My floor is covered in nearly finished paintings, work that reflects my trajectory for the last 20 years. But yet… new ideas are seeping in. It scares me a little. I cannot go back to the enthusiastic painter I was when I began. I am different now. I am older, I’ve seen more, I’ve accomplished a lot. My identity as an artist is expanding again, pushing out of a cocoon I didn’t even realize I’d made for myself. Part of this sudden awareness is the end of this sunrise project. I started seriously questioning “What’s next?” Just go back to the me that I know? The artist I am comfortable with? Or is there something more out there? Can I be multiple artists at once? I don’t want to give up any aspect of myself that feels true and right. But I might