evolve

52 x 36 x2 re-envisioned antique gold frame from a estate sale on church st. CHS. said to be from 1960s. lavender + powdered lavender + plaster + concrete + oil + sand + ground crystal quartz + ground rose quartz + layers of linen in between plaster to create top right texture + rock pigment. My entire life I’ve had to learn to adapt to highly chaotic situations. How to figure out the ins and outs of what aroused chaos and how to feel out the energy of a room. Always in fight or flight mode. My nervous system was constantly activated. I craved stability. I craved being able to be alone, in a quiet peaceful space where I could truly unwind and connect with myself.  After I left Rhode Island, my active addiction was in full swing. I was the chaos. I was the danger in the room. It was like a dark cloud was always around me but I was attracting it while blaming others for making it rain. When the entire time I was the thunder, lightning, and wind. Delusionally having no idea. Pulling out t