hope in uncertainty

49 x 33 x 3 hand built walnut wooden canvas. plaster + oil + concrete + iron paint + copper oxidizing paint + rust + folly beach sand + metal activator + broken pearl + ink. Everything around me is falling apart. Nothing is going right. I'm lost, broke, sick, homeless, tired but restless, hungry, angry, lonely, desperate. My mental state to me feels like I am in a literal ditch. I can feel my soul looking out at life as if seeing it from a dark tunnel. I'm experiencing things that are happening, but my mind is only concentrated on the weight of the dark thick fog that lays over the eyes of my existence. - This is a status of being I have known before, back when I was in active addiction years ago.  Although existing in such a dark place I felt I still had a small light of hope. Now, that small light that I had, I constantly stoke to keep it a fire that will shine through the darkness of the unknown. Out of that dark fog that covered me I am free to see all the clarity and balance of